  Jean Verodine
      I opened my eyes slowly and can t help but smile when I saw Blake the first thing in the morning. He s still sleeping soundly beside me. He s still hugging me tightly. I didn t expect the nightmares to come again, it s been 3 days in a row that I got it.
      I got up slowly not wanting to wake Blake up. I kissed Blake;s forehead and got off from the bed. I opened my phone, new phone to be exact and Thank God I have my data from iCould. I just need to announce to my friends that I have a new number.
      I took out my black crop top and jeans out, I got into the shower. I washed my body and just refresh myself. I got out from the shower and dry myself and out my clothes on.
      I walked out from the bathroom and found Blake still sleeping, suddenly my stomach growled. I went up the bed and watched Blake sleeping. I can t contain my joy looking at him.
      I kissed his lips and suddenly he kissed me back, pulling my body to him. He wrapped his arms around my body.
      &quot;What a nice morning call.&quot; He opened his eyes and looked at me.
      &quot;Morning.&quot; I smiled and suddenly my stomach growled.
      &quot;You hungry?&quot; He chuckled.
      &quot;You have to feed me.&quot; I kissed his nose.
      &quot;I will&quot; I tried to wiggle out from his arms but he pulled me back to him.
      &quot;Where do you think you re going?&quot;
      &quot;Blake, get up!&quot; He kissed me again but this time, he took it slowly and sweet. He trailed his kisses down to my neck.
      &quot;Come on.&quot; I pushed him and smirked. He gave me a peck on my lips and got up from the bed.
      &quot;How s your sleep?&quot; He asked.
      &quot;Good.&quot;
      &quot;You snore last night.&quot; That made me turn to him in horror. He grinned.
      &quot;You re lying.&quot;
      &quot;Don t worry, it s sexy.&quot; What the hell?!
      &quot;Go take a shower or I ll kick you out!&quot; I glared at him and he laughed, he made his way to the bathroom. I waited for Blake by laying down on the bed. I looked up to the ceiling and can t help but remembering the nightmare that I had last night.
      It felt so real that Will wants to kill me. If Blake wasn;t there, I will face it all alone. I need someone to comfort me and Blake was the only one who s present.
      Lexy was the one who used to comfort me but now she s not here.
      &quot;Babe, can you pass me my clothes?&quot; I got up and saw the clothes on the table. I took it and gave it to Blake. He winked at me and I can t help but laugh.
      I felt so happy right now and I want to enjoy it. It might be a little bit of happiness but it meant a lot to me. I really need a little bit of sweetness in my bitter life right now.

  Jean Verodine
      &quot;A simple wedding?&quot; Lexy looked at me like I grow 2 heads.
      &quot;Yes, Lexy.&quot; I nodded as I opened my Vogue magazine while eating my favorite chocolate bread.
      &quot;Jean, you will only get married once. Why don t you have a glamourous wedding?&quot; That statement made me turn to her.
      &quot;We don t love each other and this is all a fake wedding. He wants his heritage and I want my safety.&quot; I rolled my eyes and continued to read.
      &quot;Being safe in his arms?&quot; She raised her eyebrows.
      &quot;Yeah.&quot; I nodded weakly and she suddenly snapped her finger to get my attention.
      &quot;Don t tell me that you re falling for him, Jean?&quot; That made me look at her.
      &quot;No, I m already numb for love, last time I love someone it turned out.. so.. you know.&quot; I can t help but put down my magazine and sighed.
      &quot;I know you were hurted badly in the past but life must go on, you can t stuck in one place.&quot; She said and I chuckled.
      &quot;Lexy, I don t want to get hurt again. Besides, Blake likes to sleep around with other women and maybe before 3 months he would get tired with me and divorce me right away.&quot; I said since I know the consequence for it. I know it will hurt me but this is the path that I take.
      &quot;Jean, that s 3 months away, you ll never know what will happen!&quot;
      &quot;I like him, I admit that but I don t think I will love him, Lexy.&quot; I admitted my feelings to her and she smiled widely.
      &quot;Do you realize that whenever we talk about Blake, your face glows up?&quot; I shook my head and she chuckled.
      &quot;You like him more than you know it, Jean.&quot;
      &quot;Will was in Miami.&quot;
      &quot;What?&quot;
      &quot;Blake went to the Apple store, I walked out and palnned to go to a cupcake store across the street but he was there, Lexy. He looked at me with his killing eyes and I walked backwards, good thing that Blake was behind me.&quot;
      &quot;You still got nightmares?&quot; She asked.
      &quot;Yeah until today but when I was in Miami, Blake caught me having one and he quickly woke me up.&quot;
      &quot;Did you tell him about your past?&quot; She asked and I shook my head.
      &quot;You need to tell him, Jean. He needs to know and maybe he can help you.&quot; I looked at her and shook my head.
      &quot;If I tell him, I know what will his action be, Lexy. I want Blake out from this. He doesn t need to know, I m afraid that jerk will do something to him.&quot;
      &quot;By deciding to marry him, it means you already drag him into this, Jean. You need to tell him since your wedding is in 6 days.&quot; Lexy held my hand and I can t help but think about it.
      &quot;Lexy, I.. I don t think I want Blake to know about this. He has a long way in his life and I don t know about mine. What if Will decides to kill me?&quot;
      &quot;Don t say something like that you idiot!&quot; Lexy glared at me.
      &quot;He s William Merion, he can do anything. He even knew I was in Miami!&quot; I sighed
      &quot;Don t say stupid things like he will kill you and stuff!&quot; She hissed and looked at me in fear.
      &quot;I made a mistake in the past and this is the consequence that I need to take.&quot;
      &quot;Listen to me Lexy, whatever happens to me, don t tell Blake okay? I don t want to drag him into all this mess.&quot;
      &quot;Why are you saying things like this? It s not like you re going to die tomorrow! Don t scare the hell out of me, Jean.&quot; I smiled at her and she glared at me.
      &quot;We never know, Alexis Sierra.&quot;
      &quot;You have to tell Blake, Jean.&quot; Lexy said.
      &quot;I want ice cream, let s go get one!&quot; I changed the topic.
      &quot;You have an appointment to try on your wedding dress today.&quot;
      &quot;So?&quot;
      &quot;We have to get there in 10 minutes!&quot; She rolled her eyes and walked to the mirror to check her make-up. I stook up from my bed and took my phone. There a text from Blake that makes me smile.
      Blake :
      What are you doing beautiful? Don t forget your appointment at 1.30
      &quot;What are you smiling about?&quot; Lexy asked and I put my phone inside my bag.
      &quot;Nothing.&quot; I walked away from her and went out. I got into my car and sar on the driver seat first. I took my phone out to reply Blake.
      Me :
      I m going Blake, don t worry about it. Still working?
      I replied him and in seconds he called me.
      &quot;Hey baby.&quot; He said as I picked the call up.
      &quot;Hey, what s up?&quot; I asked wondering why he s calling me.
      &quot;You going there?&quot; He asked.
      &quot;Not yet, waiting for Lexy now, Is everything okay?&quot; He never calls me so I m a little bit suspicious.
      &quot;Yeah.. uhmm.. I m just..&quot; He kept silent and I was waiting for him to continue his sentence.
      &quot;You okay?&quot;
      &quot;I just want to hear your voice.&quot; That made me chuckle and I smiled widely.
      &quot;When will you go home?&quot;
      &quot;Around 6, why?&quot;
      &quot;What is your favorite food?&quot;
      &quot;Anything.&quot;
      &quot;Is pasta, okay?&quot;
      &quot;That ll be good.&quot;
      &quot;Okay then, see you-&quot;
      &quot;Jean&quot; He cut me.
      &quot;Hmm?&quot; I mumbled but he kept silent.
      &quot;Blake, you okay?&quot;
      &quot;I miss you.&quot; That got my breath hitch, I can t hide my happiness.
      &quot;Be home at 6, Blake.&quot; I hung up at the same time when Lexy got into the car. I turned to her and she looked at me weidly.
      &quot;What s with that face?&quot; She asked.
      &quot;What?&quot; I asked and she flicked my forehead.
      &quot;Hey! What was that for?&quot; I protested.
      &quot;You re smiling weirdly, is it Blake?&quot;
      &quot;No.&quot;
      &quot;What a liar!&quot;
      &quot;I m not.&quot;
      &quot;Better try acting next time so you can put a fake expression.&quot;
      &quot;You re annoying!&quot;
      &quot;Let s go get the wedding dress, Jean, or you want to wear a night lingerie on your wedding day.&quot; She smirked and I looked at her disbelief. I started the car and drove to the wedding dress shop.

  Blake Coster
      I was surrounded by a lot of girls, they re flirting with me and started touching my body. I tired to have fun but I couldn t. My mind was somewhere else.
      I always love when girls worship me but now I don t felt the excitement that I used to have. Weird? Definitely.
      &quot;What are you thinking handsome?&quot; a light brown girl was giving me a sexy stare, she has the same hair color as Jean. That took my attention but still she s not Jean.
      Just thinking about Jean made my system light up, there s something wrong with me. Suddenly the girl beside me kissed my lips, I kissed her back and pulled her closer. The excitement wasn t there, I felt so bland.
      She ran her hands through my hair just like Jean did earlier but I don t feel my hormone go up. I pushed her away and she looked at me shock. I stood up and make my way out from the main club. I walked out from the club and got into my car. I drove back to the hotel.
      I need to fix everything with Jean or I ll go crazy.
      I was so frustrated thinking about her, why is she so difficult? I sighed and speed up my car to go to the hotel. I looked at my watch and it s 8 p.m. Arriving at the hotel, I quickly asked the receptionist for her room key. It took a lot of time to convience them that she s my girlfriend. I brought up my luggage with me and quickly took the lift up.
      I felt this excitement everytime I m going to see her.
      I walked out from the lift and put the card to the scanner. I walked inside and I heard the TV was on. I walked slowly to check her and found her sleeping. I turned off the TV and walked slowly to her.
      I looked at her and found myself smiling. I love this side of her. So calm and just peaceful. I slipped a a few strands of her hair that cover her face to the side. I caressed her cheek and kissed her forehead. Kissing her forehead was better than kissing that girl earlier.
      I decided to take a shower since my body smelled alcohol. I jumped into the shower and changed into my white tee and long pants. I walked out from the bathroom while drying my hair with towel.
      Suddenly, I heard a mumble, I quickly walked to the bed. I saw Jean mumbling in her sleep, sweats were coming out from her forehead. What happen to her?
      &quot;No no please!&quot; She begged and then she screamed so loud. I quickly got on the bed and pulled her to me.
      &quot;Please! No!&quot; She screamed again.
      &quot;Hey, hey. I m here, it s okay.&quot; I whispered and caressed her shoulder trying to calm her down. She was sweating like crazy. She still mumbling something and she cried.
      &quot;Jean.. Jean! Wake up! I m here..&quot; I said and she opened her eyes. She turned to me with a lot of tears in her eyes.
      &quot;You okay?&quot; I asked. I pulled her to sit beside me, she suddenly hugged me tightly. I felt her breathing pattern went crazy.
      &quot;It s okay, I m here.&quot; I stroked her hair and kissed the side of her head.
      &quot;You had a nightmare.&quot; I said and she nodded.
      &quot;You okay? You re crying and sweating lke crazy.&quot; I asked.
      &quot;Yeah.&quot; She answered weakly.
      &quot;Go to sleep again, I ll wait until you sleep. I won t go anywhere.&quot; I kissed the side of her head again and she nodded. She buried her head to my chest and we laid down. I stroked her hair to make sure that she felt safe.
      I was shocked to see her screaming and mumbling things in her sleep. She even cried in her sleep.
      &quot;Stay with me Blake, please. Don t leave me okay?&quot;
      &quot;I won t leave you.. I promise.&quot; I said and I kept her so near. My heart was crushed to see her so fragile like this. What kind of nightmare that she get until it made her cry and scream?
      &quot;I m sorry for earlier.&quot; I whispered not wanting to wake her up.
      &quot;Where were you?&quot; She suddenly asked and I thought she was asleep.
      &quot;Bar, meeting my bestfriend.&quot; I said honestly.
      &quot;I want to take back what I said earlier about you having a mistress, Blake.&quot; That made me smile, she doesn t need to know that her words hurt me. I felt rejected earlier.
      &quot;Go to sleep.&quot;
      &quot;Thankyou for the phone.&quot; That made me smile even more knowing she will use it.
      What did you do to me Jean? I m acting like an idiot now.
      &quot;Don t leave me okay? You can stay here as long as you let me hug you.&quot; She said as she buried her head to my chest.
      &quot;I m not planning to go either. Now, go to sleep. You need it.&quot; I looked down to her and she nodded.

Jean Verodine
      I opened my eyes slowly and can t help but smile when I saw Blake the first thing in the morning. He s still sleeping soundly beside me. He s still hugging me tightly. I didn t expect the nightmares to come again, it s been 3 days in a row that I got it.
      I got up slowly not wanting to wake Blake up. I kissed Blake;s forehead and got off from the bed. I opened my phone, new phone to be exact and Thank God I have my data from iCould. I just need to announce to my friends that I have a new number.
      I took out my black crop top and jeans out, I got into the shower. I washed my body and just refresh myself. I got out from the shower and dry myself and out my clothes on.
      I walked out from the bathroom and found Blake still sleeping, suddenly my stomach growled. I went up the bed and watched Blake sleeping. I can t contain my joy looking at him.
      I kissed his lips and suddenly he kissed me back, pulling my body to him. He wrapped his arms around 

Chapter18 BLS 1 – Little bit of happiness