  He gulped and asked, "Do you know what my problem is?" I shook my head in response. "Listen to what I have to say because I will not repeat it," he said and I nodded. He took a deep breath and said, &quot;You are beautiful, El. I don't know what will happen to me if you hurt me."<span class="Apple-converted-space"> 
  When I heard what he said, I froze in my seat; he was staring straight in my eyes, and I could see how serious he is; I could tell in his expression that what he said came from his heart; I could sense how terrified he is that I will hurt him, and it made me feel a mixture of emotions. At the same time, I was saddened, nervous, puzzled, and ashamed. I felt sad because of the fact that I felt for him; that I have never felt like liking him. I was nervous because I didn't want to hurt him. What will happen to him? I was embarrassed because, despite his attempts and apprecia

  'Who are you in my life, Baki Canglor?' I asked myself.
  I can't explain why I'm feeling tense with her. I feel like we know each other or that we have a link in my life because she can do something that I don't feel in others, just like I felt before. All of her acts and gestures to me are always calm, and I can't bear to look her in the eyes because I feel she knows everything about me. Every time she smiles, I get the impression that she's challenging me to something I'm not sure about. I can't really explain why I feel that way about her.
  "Are you all right, El?" Ivan said as he placed his hand on my shoulder.
  I gave him a direct glance and a smile. I respond with a nod, "Don't worry, I'm OK."
  "That's great," he said, smiling, as he took his hand out of my shoulder. "Perhaps you were taken aback by Baki's actions and treatment of you."  He continued, "Actually, she appears a

  El&quot;s point of view
  I'm not angry with Jas; I just lack the courage to continue to face him. I'm not upset; instead, I'm envious. I understand I have no right to be envy if he wanted to show his appreciation for Baki, but that is how I feel. I'm not sure how to conceal my emotions, and this is the first time I've treated him like this. I know he's curious, and I know he's puzzled by my behavior, but I can't force myself to be okay. It also, too, will pass; I'll be well, but not right now.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> 
  I didn't get a chance to speak with Jas before he went. I wonder why I have the impression that he meant what he done previously. I'm not sure how it came to mind, but I get the impression that Jas made the banner to make me jealous, and if that's the case, I'm not sure why he did it. Does he like me? Was he envious of the effort I was putting in for Ivan?<

He gulped and asked, "Do you know what my problem is?" I shook my head in response. "Listen to what I have to say because I will not repeat it," he said and I nodded. He took a deep breath and said, &quot;You are beautiful, El. I don't know what will happen to me if you hurt me."<span class="Apple-converted-space"> 
  When I heard what he said, I froze in my seat; he was staring straight in my eyes, and I could see how serious he is; I could tell in his expression that what he said came from his heart; I could sense how terrified he is that I will hurt him, and it made me feel a mixture of emotions. At the same time, I was saddened, nervous, puzzled, and ashamed. I felt sad because of the fact that I felt for him; that I have never felt like liking him. I was nervous because I didn't want to hurt him. What will happen to him? I was embarrassed because, despite his attempts and appreciation, I still didn't like him.<span class="Apple-converted-space"> 
  I'm just staring at him, unsur

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