chapter 48

It feels strange having Valen under my roof. Awkward. Everything I usually do for Valarian, he suddenly asked his dad to do, like cut up his food. I’m suddenly no longer needed; he asked for his father when it was his bath time. Most of my evening was spent twiddling my thumbs, since I only had to heat dinner up. Yet, Valen never once complained and actually seemed to enjoy his son’s constant attention. I dread when he eventually leaves, knowing it will make my bond ache, so I know I’ll be taking my pills that are hidden in the cupboard. Hopefully, I can sneak them past Zoe. Even as I went to put Valarian to bed, he asked if his father could tuck him in. I know it was childish, but nights were the only time I got to spend with him, really, so it bothered me more than it should. I’m so used to juggling things between Zoe and me that it feels unnatural having someone willingly helping us, ruining our usual routine. I suddenly have time on my hands, and I’m not sure how I feel about that.