#Chapter 38: Breaking A Heart

I stand at the stairs that lead to Alston’s prison cell, because Sirius said if I tell Alston the truth then he can be let free. I don’t know why but when he said that it felt like I could be set free, or caged because at this point I don’t know the difference. Sirius said he was obsessed with me. I want to act like that scares me but I have never been so happy as I am right now, knowing that Sirius cannot live without me makes my skin boil in happiness. My body singing with pleasure and all I want to do is make him say it again and again. I’ve never wanted Alston to say I love you to me. I don’t think he never said it again that it would truly matter to me because I love him the way you tell a friend before they leave your home, ‘I love you, text me when you get home,’ not ‘I love you, and if you ever left me the world would crumble in on itself and I wouldn’t be able to breath.’ When Sirius says I love you, it feels like oxygen to me, like coming home or going to my rightful