Chapter 36: Warm Emotions

< Dylan > For the first time in years, someone's tears affected me. From the day I entered the Mafia, no one's cries ever reached my ears. I never felt bad when I killed all those people over the years. I made so many women cry and beg me to spare the lives of their own or their family's lives. But I never did. My heart that has been numb for so long was starting to feel joy and sadness again. I thought my heart was cold as ice. Then why was it starting to feel emotions that I have been estranged for years? Why… Why were her tears affecting me? Why did it hurt so much as I said those harsh words to her? Why did I feel so bad when she became upset? Out of my guilty feeling for Shirley, I subconsciously started typing an apology text to her. But seeing how cringe-worthy it was, I erased it and typed a short 'I'm sorry', yet it felt weird. Why can't I do anything right? "Why?" I groaned. "The fuck do you mean by why? Are you asking me why I made that deal?" Riley snapped at me, and