Chapter 37

El"s point of view Everything went fine, but I was not quite happy. Perhaps this is when we do what is best for us while ignoring our hearts wants. It's difficult to force ourselves to do things that go against our feelings; you never know when you'll learn or educate yourself. Because of the "what ifs" we have in mind, deciding which path to take in life might be difficult. The most important thing is to take risks, but I'm frightened that someone may be hurt, so as long as I can, I'll continue and believe that I'll learn something that I can't do now. It's been a month since Ivan and I decided to start dating. Nothing has changed in the month that has gone. It becomes more difficult to act normal in front of others as time passes. I'm happy with Ivan, but I'm not sure why I don't like him as much as he likes me. I am happy when I am with him and his friends, but despite the efforts he has made and the feelings he has made me feel, I still consider him a friend. I don't