Chapter .62.

I loved you so hard that I softened. -nectar * * * I wish I could describe in better details what happened after that. All I can remember when looking back is pain, pain, and more pain. And Orion being stupid Orion. Of Grandma yelling at me and me screaming back at her. Orion looking so fragile and in that moment, me not giving a damn what he felt because of the pain. The pain. No one really warned me about the pain. I've suffered much in my life, but this was of a different kind. It's hard to describe, and it's something that can't be conveyed, but pain had different tones. Different feelings. There are physical and emotional and mental. Each category had different levels and each level has a different standing. I thought of all of this while I laid there screaming. Why was I screaming? Because of pain? Because I just