#Chapter 96: Lionel’s turmoil

Lionel’s POV Things are difficult. In the eyes of the law, Katya is my mate. My wife. We are supposed to be bound together for life. Her ‘death’ had changed things. I blamed myself for a long time. A lot of if’s pained me in those first few months. I was a widower and single father in one night. Everything that went wrong in our relationship had felt like my fault. If I had tried hard enough, maybe I could have loved her. If I had not played in to her games, maybe she would have given up on me. If I had defied our engagement, maybe we both would have been happier people. If I had not argued with her, maybe she wouldn’t have gotten into that car. If…if…if…if…if… Vera never stopped crying the first few weeks after Katya’s funeral. It was only because of her that I had a small glimpse of joy in the dark period. Only she provoked anything in my other than guilt or apathy. Then came Nan and Patti. They blazed into my void of indifference with loud happiness