#Chapter 50 Unexpected Unwanted Uncomfortable

The idea of my child resenting me was heartbreaking. If this all really happened, then what would my baby know about me? What poison would Elroy and Rita tell them, if I was never there to prove my love? That was the last straw for me, and I curled into myself to cry. It was just too much. Astor awkwardly wrapped his arms around me, one hand gently stroking my back in soothing circles. "Shh, it's alright," Astor murmured, pulling me into his chest. "Let it all out. I'm here for you." I didn’t bother trying to respond; I just needed to cry myself out, and then I’d be able to think clearly again, but I realized just how many tears I had to cry. I’d bulldozed through so much, desperate to keep going, but trauma was a faster runner than me. Of course it had caught up to me. I cried for everything, all at once. Years of unnecessary treatments that ended in betrayal, the life I thought the Moon Goddess had planned for me crashing down, the horror of the pack bond snapping, it all