chapter 81

Katya POV Waking up I felt like I had been hit by a truck, every part of me felt broken. The rooms smelt like a brothel and I scrunch my nose up at the scent when everything smashed into me at once. Like a bad horror movie yet I starred in it. I could remember every detail yet it was like it wasn’t me, like watching an old fuzzy memory you aren’t sure is really yours. I remember me attacking Mateo yet even that didn’t feel like it was me only I knew I did it. Remember Maddox and the Alpha’s. Everything but it wasn’t me, like someone else had the controls and I was purely an observer to my own actions. Shame and guilt pushed me up right in bed before I broke down. I assaulted Mateo, my own friend and cheated on Ezra. “Woah lay back down, you are pretty badly banged up” comes Ezra’s voice beside me. I looked at him shocked he would even come near me after what I did. “Hey, why are you crying?” “Because I…” I couldn’t even bring myself to say it, the shame I felt at what I subjected Mateo