  I have been trying to avoid Britta after the incident of that day, only the moon goddess knows what she is plotting now.
      "Kate, are you avoiding me? " O moon goddess I hope that not Britta since my senses have dulled I can't tell who is who through scent.
      I slowly turn around " oh Lillian what are you doing here?" I asked letting go of the breath I have been holding.
      Did I also mention I have also been avoiding everyone? Yep, my new mission is to make sure no one sees me like this.
      what a stupid question, what will she be doing here for crying out loud this is her home, I can't believe I am so scared of Britta.
      "Sorry I meant to say how are you doing? " I ask laughing nervously.
      "are you okay ?" she asked staring at me suspiciously.
      "yes, why would you think I am not okay? I look fine right you must be seeing wrong because I am fine look at me 

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      I watch her from afar everything she did, how she learned to hold the tears back, hold the smiles and laugh back, how she learned there is no love for her in this world but she was so wrong because there was so much love waiting for her only if she could look past the pain.
      She looks strong, cold, and without emotions, because she believes showing emotions shows weaknesses.
      She is tired of all the drama, hate, tired of not being good enough, tired of being blamed for what she knows nothing about, tried for being punished, and left alone to bear the heartbreak.
      But she refuses to look dramatic, weak, and attention-seeking, she refuses to let them see her cry only to be known as a girl without a heart.
      She locks it deep down, acts like she is used to the pain but cries silently so everyone thinks she gives no shit about what they do to her.
    

  It has been three weeks since I have been in this pack, with me being ignored and treated like trash by Lawrence and Britta, but it's okay at least I am being treated well by the rest of the royals it's been lovely.
      I am more close to Lillian and Becca now but that doesn't mean I am more open to them now but I am trying to be more relaxed and give them a chance.
      Becca and Ethan are getting closer, they can't even stay five minutes away from each other with love growing immensely between them.
      I can't help but wish I have that kind of love from my mate but once again I wasn't meant to be loved that was my curse I have learned to live with all my life.
      I don't know what is happening but can't sleep or eat properly, must be the mate pull because we refused to accept it but I will go through this with a strong mind, fighting it when needed.
      Come to think of it

I have been trying to avoid Britta after the incident of that day, only the moon goddess knows what she is plotting now.
      "Kate, are you avoiding me? " O moon goddess I hope that not Britta since my senses have dulled I can't tell who is who through scent.
      I slowly turn around " oh Lillian what are you doing here?" I asked letting go of the breath I have been holding.
      Did I also mention I have also been avoiding everyone? Yep, my new mission is to make sure no one sees me like this.
      what a stupid question, what will she be doing here for crying out loud this is her home, I can't believe I am so scared of Britta.
      "Sorry I meant to say how are you doing? " I ask laughing nervously.
      "are you okay ?" she asked staring at me suspiciously.
      "yes, why would you think I am not okay? I look fine right you must be seeing wrong because I am fine look at me I am perfectly fine don't worry about me. you are very funny why will you think that----" I say

Chapter 19