  LAWRENCE POV:
      I release her from the hug before cupping her cheeks in my hands I stroke her cheeks looking into her eyes full of pain and loss, those sparks I saw when she laughed were gone.
      " my name means pure but my heart is not pure but dark and filled with hate," she says softly bringing her head down in shame.
      " Everyone has a painful past but is how you deal with the pain that shows how strong you are" and I am taking from experience it brave enough to hide the pain but braver in letting go of what you feel.
      " so that means you have a painful past? " she asks sock as she avoids my gaze.
      "My father was not always this kind and free, he started training me at the age of six years" I breathe deeply as the memories clouds my mind "I never received any love all he cared was to build me up to be a king, the only person who was able to save me when it gets

  "Heat, how can this be now for crying out loud" I clenched my stomach in pain.
      "I don't know, I felt it earlier today but I took it as something else when I felt it again I was able to hold the pain until you got in the room," Tiara says in pain.
      This pain is so unbearable, my body feels like it is on fire "oh moon goddess help me get through this " I cry in pain.
      I trudged slowly towards the closest searching for perfumes "this meant work" mumble tiredly.
      I opened some of the bottles before pouring them everywhere in the room " what is this for, Kate? " Tiara asked confused.
      " This is to reduce the scent of my heat," I say nonchalantly before walking into the bathroom, stripping off my clothes I got into the cold freezing water.
      "don't you think we should call Lawrence " Tiara suggest warily.
      "no, we can go through these three days alone, nobo

  I release him from the hug " I heard what went on between you, Grace, Becca, and Lillian " he says warily after a few minutes of silence.
      I refuse to look at him because I know he surely takes sides with his sister "you know Lillian says those things in anger, she doesn't think of you that way" he says holding my hands.
      "I understand " I reply coldly knowing where all this is going.
      " I am always here for you, tell me what going on in that mind of yours," he says softly before bringing my face to look at him " I am dying to know what going on, it makes me feel helpless that I can't even help because you won't tell me anything or let me in," he says, his eyes grow wistfully and of pain evident in his voice.
      "Kate you need to tell him, it now or never," Taira says tiredly " don't you think its time to let go, to let someone take the wheel "
      "Please do this f

LAWRENCE POV:
      I release her from the hug before cupping her cheeks in my hands I stroke her cheeks looking into her eyes full of pain and loss, those sparks I saw when she laughed were gone.
      " my name means pure but my heart is not pure but dark and filled with hate," she says softly bringing her head down in shame.
      " Everyone has a painful past but is how you deal with the pain that shows how strong you are" and I am taking from experience it brave enough to hide the pain but braver in letting go of what you feel.
      " so that means you have a painful past? " she asks sock as she avoids my gaze.
      "My father was not always this kind and free, he started training me at the age of six years" I breathe deeply as the memories clouds my mind "I never received any love all he cared was to build me up to be a king, the only person who was able to save me when it gets tough and made me smile was elder Mathias "
      " my father kept on with this until I was tak

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