Chapter 9 Go home

Can you help me?? "For what?? "i don't understand what he meant. "For umm.. like... Kinda winning her heart over? " he said a bit hesitantly. "Woah... Woah... Woah.. . Are you serious?? I mean for her?? " i asked as i need to know. I don't know what kind of person he is nor i do know any thing about Anyee. He nodded his head in agreement. He has a calm face and i was certain he was telling the truth. " I'm not certain if I can help you or not?? I mean you guys know each other better than me. I mean.... I don't know about her nor about you properly . Please don't get me wrong. But I'm sorry, Rick" i said this. I wanted to help him. But i don't think I'll be of much help... And more importantly i don't know these things as i have never been in a relationship. "It's okay , you don't have to..." he said a layer of disappointment covering his face. "Thank you for understanding " i said to him. He nodded . I headed out of elevator. When i reached my desk, i saw Anyee standing there waiting for me. " Where were you?? I thought you were with me. I literally talk to myself whole way here" I laughed at her. "Don't you try to laugh away my anger. " she said pouting. "Sorry, don't be angry " i said reaching for my ears. "It's okay. Since you are nice to me let's be friends " her face that was pouting at me just now lit up once again. "Ok. From this moment Anyee and Riley are friends" i take my hand towards her. "Till the death " she said as she shakes hand with me. I laughed with her. Maybe I'm this happy after a long time. Now i have two friends. Feels good to have some more friends. "Its good to have more friends. Right?? But I don't have any friends here. I mean that ediot is my friend but you know he works in another floor and we only met at lunch" wow, she really called Rick ediot twice today. "I feel the same. " i smiled at her. "Really, looks like we're close friends now that we feel the same. " she said with a lot of excitement. "Yep. Now go to your desk or manager will cut out our half salary. " i said pushing her towards her desk. It was a long day. I got so tired today. When Anyee and I were going out Rick joined us. Anyee looked at him and said" hey Ediot, Riley and I are friends now. So treat her good or else i will kick your ass. " "When did i treat her badly. And we're friends too. Right Riley?? " Rick looked at me. "umm... I guess so" i said as i looked at Anyee. "And you guys never told me" Anyee started pouting again. Did I mention before she looks cute before. "i don't thought it was necessary. "Rick teased Anyee even more. I looked at them and i can't help but smile. They looked super cute together. " When did you guys became friends?? " she looked at me. I don't wanted to tease her. She was already annoyed. I looked at her and said. "Just now." Then I turned to Rick and said "Hey I'm Anyee's colleague and her friend. Rilley Wilson. " i moved my hand towards Rick. "And I'm Rick. Best friend of this stupid girl. " Rick take out his hand and shook his hand with mine. Then he looked at Anyee "happy now? " he asked. "More than happy " said Anyee as she pulled both of us in a group hug. I feel someone's gaze at me. And from the corner of my eye i saw a car. I know exactly who was inside the car. " Let's go now. " i said breaking the group hug. "Let me drive you today" Anyee said. "No"i refused quickly. Then i regretted it. "why? " Rick asked as he looked at me with confused eyes. " I... I mean I'll go with you tomorrow. And we'll have ice cream chat after work. But not today. Okay "i said. " Tomorrow. Sure right? " Anyee said " you rejected me yesterday also" "Yeah, Promise . And let's go in one car tomorrow. It'll be fun. " i said to them. "But we have two " Anyee looked at her car and Rich's car. I looked at Rick and signaled him to grab the opportunity. He understands and said " don't worry, I'll pick you up on my way to office and drop you while our way to home. " " Cool then" said Anyee. Rich looked at me and wishper thank you. I mean he was not even making sound but i know it was a thank you. "Ok, then see you guys tomorrow ?" i looked at them and said. " See you girls" Rich went into his car as well as Anyee. I waved bye to them. After they left i walked towards the car. When i reached there i opened the passenger seat and got inside. Inside was a man around his fifty. He was holding a burned cigratte in his hands. He was cold and aloof carrying a cold aura around him. I looked at the driver at the front seat. The driver was not looking at ne. Yes i am familiar with this driver, with this car. I have in this car a lot of times before. And this driver has been driving this car. "Dad" i forced my tear back and tried to sound as if i was not effected."why are you here?? " " To take you home. " said dad pushing the burned ash off of his cigarette. " I'm not going ."i said looking away. I remembered everything that happened few days ago when he wasn't here. I was holding my tears. And damn, it's hard. "Why? " he asked "look at me" I looked at him. "Even if i am having a crash at my business now, i still am able to afford my family expenses . I still can support my family. " i know he was hurt . I can see that in his eyes. I quickly looked away. If i looked at him once more i won't be able to keep myself. He was hurt. And i had hurt him. "When did you return?" I tried to change the topic. "This morning. Now let's go home " he said again. "I want to live on my own. " i said to him but my voice was barely listenable . I doubt if my voice were shaking. I no longer can hold myself. I need to get out of here. I unlocked the car door and was about to leave when dad said. " Now that you are big you don't need us" i can feel he was sad from his voice. He... Maybe he was crying. I halted for a moment but i didn't stop.I don't if he knew that i know the fact but i knew he was referring to my adoption. I opened the door and get outside . Then i moved forward with out looking back. And dad didn't stopped me either. I move as fast i can. After the car was out of sight, i ran. I ran like stupid little girl. When i reached the apartment, i closed the door behind me and leaned over it. I covered my mouth and finally let go of my tears. I'm sorry dad. I don't want to hurt you. Dad sorry for making you cry. You were the one who saved me and give me this life. If it wasn't for you guys, who knows if i would be alive this day ? Dad you were the one who loved me, loves me unconditionally. Dad your little girl is still the same. She hasn't grown not even slightest . I'm still your cry baby and i still need you. I need you today as much as I needed you while i was unconscious at the forest. Dad, im sorry. I can't go home... I don't want that to happen to me again. I don't want Sarah to hate me. I don't want to see or feel my mom never loved me. I don't want to accept all of this. I'd rather say all of this is misunderstanding... I want all of this to be a lie. But I know this is truth and i can't do anything about it I can't go home. I don't want to be unfair to Sarah. I don't want her to share her parents i don't want to create problems for her . I cried for a long time. ...i don't know how long have I been crying... I drag my lifeless body to bed. I opened my sheoed and went to bed. I was so exhausted from crying, i slpet in a while.