Spurn

Life often feels like an improbable mix of pleasure and pain. It's like riding a roller coaster: you climb high, eyes closed, fear consuming you, yet you hold your hands up, savoring the moment. That is the nature of existence. As I reached for the sky, taking in this moment, it felt as though the world had stopped revolving around me. I was living in eternal paradise. I had questions: Where am I? Why am I here? Why am I alone? What is my purpose? But did any of that matter anymore? Everything I had ever longed for was right here. Peace. I was free from burden. The hatred I felt on Earth was gone. Even though I was alone, being by myself didn't mean loneliness. Why care for anyone when all they ever gave you was agony, pain, and suffering? I closed my eyes, trying to recollect my memories. I couldn’t recall a single thing, but the bottled-up emotions were igniting. It felt like someone dear had betrayed me or done something so horrible that I desperately wished not to return to where I