Chapter 43: BLUE PENDANT

CASSIAN'S POV There is always a choice, Life is full of choices people just choose to stay blind to it. I have a choice in this situation, I have a chance to save either one. It is either Lyra or Rhea, there are no in betweens. It is either I save the love of my life or my destined mate. I can choose to either favor love or destiny, fate or delusion, Rhea or Lyra. I'm not losing Lyra, not again. I pushed her away and it hurts, the thought that she might be in danger because of me hurts like nothing I have felt before, I don't think I can survive it if she dies because I chose someone else. Our love is forever. I don't think I can afford to not pick Lyra, I don't think I can go through the piercingly cutting pain that is grief, not again. The last time I experienced that kind of pain, the last time I felt like my life was spinning out of control, like it was unraveling really face was when we were young and Dorian was kidnapped. I could not forgive myself, I don't think I can stil