Chapter 19

Ava’s POV Was it just my ingenuity? Was it all just one-sided love? I was in love with them without a doubt about what I was feeling for them. The haul kept pushing me to them, and sometimes I felt it wasn’t me. I felt as if something was controlling me. I was being controlled by an unknown magic. I lost control when I couldn’t see them, and I wanted to scream in rage when I thought about or caught a glimpse of them with another woman. Why? What was going on with me? Why was I feeling this way? Despite everything, why was my heart beating faster whenever I was with them? I had always despised them. I despised being near men after having experienced rape, torture, and pain, but why were they different? Why did I see them in a different way? They were uninterested in me at all. They only thought of me as a friend. Why wasn’t everything going my way? Why was I the only miserable human on the planet? I believe I was meant to be alone in this life, with no one to love me. I was bound to die