Chapter 17

"WOAAAH !!!" I also caught up with everyone when Moonstone came out. Finally!

Before, I didn't like that noise. But I really believe that everything can change, because it all has a reason.

Chaos changed me.

It was only then that I realized everything when he was gone.

I just realized all my mistakes.

Nashville was right, there was still time for me to correct everything. There is still time for me to change everything, this is my choice after all. But I will do everything to win Chaos trust again, even if he just forgives me is enough. He doesn't deserve me.

"Are you alright?" Kathleen whispered loudly, the people were already squealing.

I stood up straight and smiled with my hands thumbs up.

He also smiled at me and at the same time we jumped on the people as we waved the lightstick in the air.

"Hello everyone!" Chaos started when they finished arranging the instruments, I can see how happy he is now but I can feel something else in his eyes. Hays.

"Woaaaaaah!" I smiled at the response of the people.

Chaos chuckled.

Fuck! Why does it sound to be sexy ?!

"Tangina Sha! Papa Chaos's sexy laugh!" That even Kathleen noticed that laugh as well. I smiled in response.

"How are you all? Did you miss us ?!" Even Chaos.

"Yes!"

"We missed you Moonstone!"

"I love you Chaos !!"

"My gosh! I love you !!!"

He was the shout of the people, for the second time Chaos laughed again.

"I love you too." Chaos's response and a loud shout again filled the Arena today.

A few moments later he spoke and he signaled to his companions the reason for them to play, you can probably hear nothing but the shouts and screams of the people.

"Yeah you!

Yeah you! "

I also kept up when everyone started singing.

"I used to wanna be
Living like there's only me
And now I spend my time
Thinking 'bout a way to get you off my mind (yeah you!) "

I used to be so tough
Never really gave enough
And then you caught my eye
Giving me the feeling of a lightning strike (Yeah you!) "

I don't know but I stopped jumping and singing when Chaos started removing the mic from the mic stand and he moved to the other side of the stage.

He is really performing well, he is doing it perfectly. He is right when he says that he is handsome, he is even more able to perform.

Im very proud of him.

"Look at me now, I"m falling
I can't even talk, still stuttering
This ground of mine keeps shaking
Oh oh oh, now!

All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you

Everybody's trying to be a billionaire
But every time I look at you I just don't care
‘Cause all I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (yeah you!) "

He put his mic back on the mic stand, and this time he sang with his eyes closed. Why is a to so handsome ?!

"Look at me now, I"m falling
I can't even talk, still stuttering
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah (Yeah you!)

All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you
All I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!) "

"I know Shaina, how many times have I told you the word I love you and how much I love you. But I want you to always remember that I'll never get tired of saying those three words to you. I love you so much, and I'm ready Wait, I'll just hear those words from your lips. Tangina! "

"Everybody"s trying to be a billionaire
But every time I look at you I just don't care
Cause all I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

Cause all I wanna be, yeah all I ever wanna be, yeah, yeah
Is somebody to you (Yeah you!)

Yeah you !. "

"Shaina, This necklace symbolizes my love for you butternut, it means I'll love you to the moon and back. That everytime you wear this, you'd always remember me wherever you are. Everytime you look at the sky and you see the moon, you will remember me, Shaina. The Luna's reminded of me. Yours is the light by which my spirit's born: you are my moon, and all my stars. "

I touched the necklace he gave me that night. The words he left out for non are still very clear. I wanted it.

At the end of the song, many people applauded.

I was not aware of my tears again.

"Awww did you cry too?" I looked at Kathleen who was also crying. It"s just funny that we have different reasons. Kathleen's crying because of tears of joy, but me? Im crying because im in pain. The person I wasted is so sick, I know someone else is holding him.

A few more rock songs in a row until the next song becomes senti or slow. They also sang their own songs. He just sang the same, their original songs and then the cover songs.

He stopped for a moment and took a guitar to the side and adjusted his mic again.

When his guitar hung on his shoulder, he started speaking again.

"I'm back again, everyone. This mashups songs, I'd like to dedicate this to those people who until now still can't move on with the ones they love." His voice was so cold on the mic even though he hadn't sung yet.

"Awwwww" him his reaction of people.

Are you one there, Chaos?

"You know, I wonder the song he wrote 'Chasing my special girl' he hasn't sung yet. Moonstone has no plans to release it. Why is that?" I heard a promise about Kathleen.

I heard that before eh.

Ah yes! To Jill, it was true what she said that Chaos had written.

I just didn't answer and looked to the front again.

"For people who continue to resist even though they know there is no certainty at all." He continued while his guitar was already playing.

"Can we open the light stick and wave?" Everyone was stunned, I looked around and gave him the height of the light stick, blue with white in color and you can really tell wow if you see it. Next, the light was turned off and only the spot light was on with them.

"Thank you." He said then smiled, he started to strum again.

God! It was a song of Hale!

"It"s all over,

I'm still here...

Here the world is stunned,

In the world...."

I was immediately horrified when I heard her voice again. It was so cold and his voice echoed, the people joined him.

He's singing while his eyes remained close.

"You can"t imagine,

You can't see.

My dreams, oh.

For you oh

For sayoooo. "

I slowly lowered my light stick and here are my tears again.

Fuck! It hurts!

I don't know if I was just imagining that I saw tears welling up in his eyes.

Even with his eyes closed, I could feel his emotions.

"Oh oh, I can't imagine without you ...

Oh oh, in my life ... "

His eyes widened and I don't know but my heart felt happy again and my heartbeat quickened again when his eyes met.

Did he see me ?!

I looked behind me to see if I was just mistaken, but when I looked at him again he was looking in a different direction.

I seemed to lose my appetite, I knew it.

He didn't see me, can he see me in the crowd?

The music and the strum of his guitar changed.

"Halaaa! I know that song !!! That image!" Tili is Kathleen.

"Coloring the mind.

Back in the past.

Don't go back.

You will only continue to be hurt

Not wanting to think

In a beautiful picture

The name is repeated over and over again. "

"C'mon sing with me!" Ani nya.

"Reunited but destined, our hearts are not ... With each other."

So maybe, we are not for each other. We are brought together but not destined.

"The next song, I know the previous songs hurt but let's hurt even more." He chuckled, and the man responded to him again. "This song is the one you love and you're looking for someone else. This song is for people who can't tell the people they love to be careful. For those who are ignored, it's just Kapit."

"Awwwww! Sick nyan lodi !!!"

"It's you,

The owner of the feelings of my beloved.

Please don't worry and I'm fine.

Some people say, if you really love him, you will go after him. "

I have no one else, Chaos.

"You"ll let go, you"ll let go.

So I ask god.

I hope she doesn't cry anymore.

I hope he is no longer alone.

I just hope so .... "

"Ohemgeeee! Is he crying ?!" I looked at Kathleen. Then I looked to the front, because we were in front of him he was obviously crying, I could see the tears in his eyes that were slowly coming down his cheeks.

"My gosh !!! Contagious!" Kathleen wiped away her tears at the same time.

"It's okay lodi !!"

"You can do that Chaos!"

"We love you Chaos !!!"

I saw Chaos smile.

"Take care of him,

He ignored me because of you

Love has become meaningless

That's how long I've been making up.

For a long time I also did not give up ....

He ignored me because of you

Because of you....."

"Right, because you never accepted me in your life. Why should I share in your life? I'm the only person who's always teasing you since then. Tangina."

"I only got tired a few times even though I knew there was no point in following you but I never thought of giving up ... Give up. Because no matter what you push away, I always see myself coming back to you."

"I'll give up everything just to have you Sha, because you're the only one I need. Even if the whole world stopped me from loving you, I won't let you down because that's how you are dear .. You were my inspiration so that's what happened I do now, but what's the use if I don't have anyone with me. "

I also can't help but cry again when I remember the last words he left behind that night.

"Since then, until now and tomorrow you will still be my inspiration and I will love you." I am also Chaos, just you and no one else.

"Grabe! That was superb!" Kathleen said when it was over. Moonstone is no longer on stage and I think they are backstage.

"Let's meet and greet gays! Let's have a few more." I just drifted to Kathleen and both of them lined up, the line we arrived at was quite long.

VIP cases have a chance to meet Moonstone and I"m one of them.

I couldn"t help but be nervous. We will meet again.

Would it be awkward to the both of us?

God! I don't think so ...

"Ahm Kath, I think I need to go .." I said to Kath.

"Hey batla! We're close now you're going back!" I looked at the front, and my chest throbbed even more when I saw them in front together with Chaos happily taking a selfie with a fan. They also signed an album.

Shall I continue ?!

There are only two and I will be next.

"Fuck ..." I heard Zarius moan when I was finally there.

I couldn't stand the look that Chaos was giving me, lately it was the width of his smile but when I did I saw that he was surprised and gradually the expression on his face became blank.

I saw them even glance at my head wearing his headband and the tarp and light stick I was holding.

Gosh!

"S-shaina ??" I heard Zyle,

"Hey gay! They know you!" I heard Kath whisper, embarrassing because suddenly everyone was silent.

I tried to look up at Chaos and so did his eyes.

It's cold.

"I-I want t-to take a selfie with y-you ..." I stuttered in front of him.

He was about to speak when he was in front of Zyle.

"Ah tara Shaina ----"

"I have to go, I still have things to do." Chaos said coldly and stood up, he was about to leave when suddenly and out of nowhere I held his arm which he stopped and everyone sighed.

"Ahm .."

"Let go, miss. I don't know you." He voluntarily removed my hand and left.

I don't know if I will be hurt by my embarrassment in front of a lot of people today or because he let go of my hand and denied that he didn't know me.

But even so, I still managed to smile and face the bands he left behind.

"Ahm, it's just you, maybe I can have a groufie, right?" I enthusiastically told them, I knew they were wondering what I was doing but in the end they just nodded and hesitated to approach me.

I handed Arkuss my phone for him to hold.

I glanced for a moment at the door through which Chaos had left.

I knew it, he's still mad.

"WHERE'S Shaina ?!"

"Tangina! Why did someone break into our house ?! Who the hell is this girl ?!"

"Fuck! Why is she dancing ?!"

I looked behind me when I heard his reaction, they were all gaping at what I was doing.

Well, I was just cooking ...

And dancing?

Ah just agree! Bad bayon? Anyway, it was their first time seeing me like this.

"What?"

They quickly approached me, Joy touched my forehead and Chiza smelled me.

"What do you think you're doing ?!" I angrily promised them.

"I-Is that really you?" Joyce asked in shock as she pointed at me. I blinked and lowered his index finger.

"Wag OA girls, it's just me. What's wrong in dancing?"

"What's wrong what's wrong ?! Huy! That's the first time so we're really surprised!" Even Jayrose.

"It's a pity Alyana isn't here." Rhea winced.

"Did something happen and, lately we've noticed you're so happy!" I frowned at Joyce.

But I just shrugged my shoulders at them and continued what I was doing.

Joyce was about to speak when my phone rang again.

Sherina's calling ....

I raised my hand to them as if to say just wait.

I didn't wait for what they would say, I turned off the stove before going out and answered Sherina's call

"Yes?" I will ask.

"Where are you sister?" Sherina said on the other line,

I sat on the bench opposite the pool. I can see from here the sunlight reflecting on the water in the pool.

"Chikka's house." He knew that when I mentioned it.

"Auntie is sending you here to the house if it's okay with you."

"Okay."

"Really sister ?!"

"Shall I repeat again?" And then I go back to being rude. Can't help it eh

"Not anymore hehe. Be careful sister! I love you!"

"Okay, I love you too." Suddenly the other line became silent, I just shrugged my shoulders and then turned off the call.

I decided to stalk Chaos's account on Ig again, even though last night I already did.

He still doesn't have any posts, I smiled when he still didn't delete my stolen pics that most of his posts are me.

I saw a post of his butternut box. I didn't know and I shivered again.

Annoying!

I went to my profile without a post. So I can"t blame others for saying I"m boring.

I came up with an idea.

I painted the sun and the pool.

The reflection of the sun on the water is so beautiful, wow! Nice!

My first post on my Instagram account.

@shainaperez: Keep your face to the sun, and you will never see the shadows.

Nothing, I just thought that was my icaption and posted at the same time. I just frowned when I saw my profile without a picture. Wow! You don't even have a photo!

Maybe, I should ask Joyce for this.

Just after I posted, my notifications immediately erupted with likes and comments.

Wait, how did they see? Is shunga I saw my followers reach 3k? Seriously ?! Eh I'm not following! Then my acc is boring but I have a lot of followers ?!

I saw my friends comment, but they just had the same reaction of 'wow first time!'

Some people I don't know also commented.

But Zyke and Nash's comment didn't escape.

@walterzyke: wow! Great to get our fan girl!

I was slapped on the forehead by Zyke's comment. Seriously?

@nashvillew .: keep it up, lil girl!

I just turned around and let them go.

I decided to go inside the house because I was leaving later.

"AHM sister, I'm moving up soon. Are you going to attend?" Sherina asked when we were in the dining room and eating.

"It's okay darling, maybe ---" I cut tita.

"No, I'm your aunt maybe you can come with me." I saw Sherina's eyes widened.

"Really sister ?!"

"You do not want?"

"Ofcourse I want! I'm a part of with honors, will you come up?"

"Wow! I knew it! Congrats darling!" Auntie's happy promise.

"Yes, congrats She!" He smiled at me, and so did I. Sometimes I see them wondering what I'm doing but they didn't bother to ask me.

"Have you decided what you will take in grade 11?" I asked.

"Phen and I decided to take Humss ate, we both want life."

"What do you want?" I saw sadness in his eyes, Right. I never asked him what he wanted and what his dreams were in life. So this time, I will do my best to make a better and good sister to her.

"I want to take journalism in college. I want to be a journalist."

"If that's what you want." I smiled at him.

When we finished eating the three of us bonded in the living room, watching a movie and videoke. I was happy to be with them. I missed it, this is what I didn't like the most before but now I can say that it's really fun to be happy.

It is only myself that hinders my own happiness.

After that, we decided to go to sleep, and also I decided to just sleep here.

When I entered my room I took a deep breath and slowly closed my door. I turned my gaze and went to a keychain hanging on the wall.

It's a keychain given by Chaos.

I picked it up and held it.

Once sitting on the end of the bed.

He gave saken to when we went to the amusement park.

What's up ---- "

"Oh!" At the same time, he reached for the squidward keychain. My forehead wrinkled, he first lowered his mask to his chin.

"Tsk. For what?"

"That one is for you, I choose squidward because both of you are rude to Squidward like him who doesn't like Spongebob's presence and you don't like my presence. But nevertheless, at least Spongebob can make squidward happy. I know its corny but that's because I think it's beautiful. I want you to keep that keychain. " He made a serious promise.

"Tsk. Why squidward? Sandy can only be a woman."

"Sandy is kind, are you kind?" I think with him.

"Just a joke! Let's go" And I felt my heart beat faster again when he held my hand again. I haven't appealed yet. I just put the keychain in my bag and stared at him.

After I remembered that, I returned the keychain and sat down again.

Suddenly I looked in the mirror and saw again the necklace he gave me.

Why are you so Chaos?

When is my heart ready to love then you will give up?

I can see from the window the beautiful sky full of stars.

I stood up and opened the window.

A sky full of stars with a half moon.

Luna.

I miss you so much, Chaos.

I can't do anything, because this is what I want first, isn't it like you said.

When I realized and admitted to myself that I love you very much, then it was too late for satin.

And one more thing, I don't want you to give up everything. You worked all Chaos, and I have no right to destroy whatever you started.

But remember, even if you are far away. I will not stop supporting all your dreams.

You broke the shattered pieces in my heart.

You changed me.

You were the only one who stayed by my side even though I pushed you away a few times.

You were always my Chaos.

You still are, even if I'm no longer.

"Are you going to build a coffee shop ?!" I nodded at Nica's question.

Yeah, that's just what I thought.

I want something new in my life. This time, the coffee shop there can also be a pastry shop. There are cakes, coffee and even donuts.

But my real intention is the butternut donuts.

"Okay, it's up to you."

"But don't you have any plans to go back to being a nurse?" Nica asked again.

"I think it's gone, there are a lot of memories left and I don't want to go back. I want a new life."

"Is that so? Dont worry Sha! We're your first customer!" Joyce said and I smiled at them.

"Oh, Alyana will be happy! She's still a coffee lover!"

"Besides, he didn't know his great love, didn't he just hurt her? I wonder if he still wants coffee." Rhea replied.

I miss Alyana,

By the way, we already know Joy's condition that she is pregnant. In the twinkling of an eye, he is asked who the father is and he changes the subject. Maybe he's not ready to tell the story yet. It's not obvious what he is but I just don't know if he already told his parents.

"I know someone who can help you there!" Please wink at Nica's promise. I frowned at him.

"Who else?"

"He was my classmates way back in highschool."

"What? It's been a long time ah? Do you still know him?" Chiza asked in surprise.

"Ofcourse! He's just trying to really forget me!" He harvested bravely. "He's an architect now, I'll take care of it. But he was rude, I don't know if he's rude now while he was reprimanding."

"Shaina will scold them, I guess Shaina wins!" I was offended by what Joyce said.

"FUCK ?! Danica where is the Architect you're talking about ?! I was waiting here for almost an hour now!" Annoying! How come I filmed Danica don's appointment with her friend, and she said we agreed to meet here at the Coffee shop near his office.

Tamo! It turns out that it's close to his office and it's too late ?!

"Patience Sha .. Hahaha maybe he's still doing something, just wait."

"How can I wait ?! Eh just now ----"

"Ehem. You must be Shaina?" I looked up at the speaker.

"Oh he must be him! I heard his voice! That's him! Baby! It's up to you." I never had a chance to answer him because the bruhilda dropped the call.

"Yes, who are you?"

He didn't answer and just sat in front of me.

"Wait mister ...."

But it looks like he didn't hear anything and someone took what was in his bag.

The laptop and he put it on the table.

He's wearing a suit and obviously he just got back from work.

I admit that a to shouts elegance but for that reason no one can beat Chaos.

"So let's begin. But before that let me introduce myself." He promised coldly. It looks like me too.

"Well you thought." I whispered and turned around.

"I am Architect Bright Migo Gealondo." At the same time, he raised his hand as if to shake hands.

"I'm Shaina Zarlaine Perez, but you can call me ---" I reached for her hand at the same time

"Let's be formal together Ms. Perez don't need to call ourselves by our first name." He made a rude promise and focused on his laptop.

"First of all do you have any plan?" He asked and I sighed. Is it drugs? That's why he's here to teach me ?! But I didn't say that and just shook his head, he nodded and focused again on his laptop.

"You need a business plan for your coffee shop,
One of the most vital steps you"ll take toward starting your coffee shop is to write a business plan. What your business is and who it serves. How it will be profitable. Your target market (primary customer demographics) Your competitors, sales and revenue projections, Milestones and goals. "Napanganga naman ako sakanya, Seriously ?!

Why did he prepare for nature? Because I don't know anything about that business. Fuck!

Is an Architect really like that? It's like a sales talk like that. But the way he talks, I think he's professional when it comes to business.

"Maybe you studied the marketing plan in college, didn't you?" Should I be offended?

"Ahm." Wait! Did we study that?

"Tsk. Before you are going to build your own business, you have to follow a marketing plan. You must write a business plan or even the 4ps. The product, price, place and the people." I bit my lip so hard, fuck! All my life I've just gaped. I wonder how Alyana can handle the business, now I know. Masqkit that in the head!

"Wait, why do you know so much about this?"

"I took Business administration in college before I became an architect now. That's why I'm good at communicating and I'm professional in talking when it comes to business." He replied that he wasn't looking at me.

"Where is your target location?"

He said a LOT more about business but thank you and something entered my brain. How bad is it for us to be yourself, there are still many cheche bureche.

"Ahm, thankyou." I said when I think it's over and he's fixing things.

He didn't answer and zinippered his laptop case and stood up so I did the same.

"Let's see each other on Saturday 8:00 am, here again. Dont. Be. Late." I almost laughed at what he said. Wow! He must be saying that to himself!

"Okay."

"I will talk to my secretary about your target location."

"Okay-" I didn't continue because the idiot didn't even say goodbye to leave and kept on leaving.

maybe I'll deal with his attitude...

To be continued...