Chapter 102: Suicidal thoughts

Maya’s POV I woke with a jolt, realizing that I had fallen asleep; I was surrounded by darkness. My mind felt heavy with guilt and confusion. I sat up as memories of last night's encounter came flooding back. “Mom’s not the same anymore!” Jackson's words repeated themselves repeatedly in my head like an old record player. It was like having a knife twisted in my heart. What had I done? I closed my eyes, and all I saw was Jackson’s shocked face and his cries at my hurtful words. The way his fathers had stared at me in horror and taken Jackson from me. I recalled how Jackson had buried himself into Max and how I had distanced myself from him since losing my Nate. Two whole weeks since he had been gone. And during those two weeks, Jackson still tried to talk to me and get close to me. He wanted my love and attention. How could I have pushed my little boy aside like he didn't matter? He must have been so confused and scared. Another wave of guilt washed over my soul and I shuddered at the