79.When There Is Nowhere to Hide

Mia I was anxious all through the night, worried that Jack was going to come back home even though I had locked the door. I groaned. This was my second night at home and I couldn't sleep tonight as well. I shouldn't have come home, I regretted for the thousandth time. I should have tortured myself with thinking of the party that I didn't get to go to instead of this torture that I was enduring at home.  I should have gone alone to the party. It wasn't a must that I went there with a date. I had thought that I would be ashamed going there without a date and being the only one without one but the shame I would have felt was nothing compared to what I was dealing with now. My head banged and I wished that I could get myself some drugs but I couldn't, reminding myself that I hadn't eaten. I glanced at the food lying on the stool and looked away. I couldn't bring myself to eat the food that Jack had brought in no matter how hungry I was.  Moreover, the food would already be cold and I didn'