Chapter 147: Spirit

We all show up to school with such different problems. No one really knows what's going on with anyone else, because we don't even know what's going on with ourselves. Lucky are those who have friends to lean on and family to support them. But ultimately, you can have all that and things still don't work out. It's just one big mental game. I need to cling to the right headspace and force myself to exist in that positive mindset. Optimism. And maybe a little spark of spirit to give me... well, spirit. I sat in my car, parked under the tree where birds like to sit and sh*t on anything under it. I need to let out some steam. Things have been so intense lately and I don't know how to understand my own emotions. My mom didn't leave much behind, but she did leave alcohol. I opened the glove compartment in my car and pulled out the little bottle I swiped from the kitchen counter this morning. I had tried this once before on my way to Dubai, but never followed through