Love Turned Ache

A few moments ago Evelyn I was dead wrong when I thought I could spend the whole day convincing myself that Jacob didn't matter anymore. It didn't work. Well, that plan went up in smoke faster than a lit matchstick. Just an hour of soul-searching, and I could tell I was crashing, burning, and falling apart. What stung me the most was that I'd seen it coming, but I still let it happen. I knew he had the power to break me in an instant, yet I trusted him and let myself dive in. I never thought he'd hurt me. How foolish of me! As I thought about the moments we had shared, my mind raced, my heart ached. The thought of losing him terrified me, even though I'd already lost him. Why did it hurt so much? Especially when I'd already lost him. Why? Was it because this was my first heartbreak? Maybe. But in this situation, I felt utterly helpless. How could what we had mean nothing to him? How could he act so cold and distant, throwing away all the promises he made to me like yesterday's news? It