Find It No Matter What

"Bang!" Hearing the sound of slamming the door, Elizabeth shivered in shock. Then, the sound of the car engine could be heard. She knew that he had left. She moved her lips with difficulty, blinked her eyes, and then burst into tears. James left after saying those words. He didn't even look at her while leaving. It seemed that he felt disgusted as soon as he saw her. Originally, she wanted to chase after him and persuade him not to leave, because their relationship would only become more and more distant after he left. Moreover, she had a lot of words to say to him, and she did not want to see him leave like this. However, he did not give her the chance. When she grabbed his hand, he pushed her away with annoyance and said, "Don't say a word, or I'm afraid that I'll strangle you to death uncontrollably." Elizabeth sat against the wall with her legs in her arms. The night wind blew steadily past her, but she only felt so cold. Even her teeth were chattering, and the blood all over her body seemed to have frozen. It was terrifyingly quiet around. She was staying in this big house alone, and the only thing which accompanied her was her rolling tears. If... she had known that he would be so angry because she ate the pills, she would never eat them no matter what. James was right. She was selfish. She only thought about her own study and career. Therefore, she didn't care about their love and his feelings. She only thought that she was still young and had many things to do. However, she forgot that he was already 30 years old and his parents were in their fifties... He said that she would be a good mother, but she knew that she was not. Otherwise, she would not buy contraceptive pills. Even though she had stopped eating them, she still made a mistake. If she had told him about it, he would not be so angry. She was so stupid that she ruined her beautiful life in person. Would James... forgive her? If she explained to him again and told him how she felt recently, would he forgive her? Her heart was in so much pain, but her mind was exceptionally clear. Even though she was grieved and heartbroken, she was glad that James didn't say that he wanted to divorce her when he was furious. Although what he said made her feel uncomfortable, and she didn't know what he was thinking about, as long as he did not want to divorce her, she still had a chance to make up for it. Otherwise, she would lose all her hope. ...... James drove out and held the steering wheel tightly with both hands. He gritted his teeth, looked at the road ahead with cold eyes, and stepped on the gas. He was driving on the street aimlessly like a fly, being dazed and doleful. He couldn't stand staying at home, and he wanted to go out on his own. But after he really came out, he suddenly didn't know where to go. The world was so big, so was A City, but he could not find a place to go. He did not want to go back to South Lake. He was afraid that he would not be able to control himself and strangle the d*mn woman. As for Lu Mansion, how could he go there in such a state? He would only make his parents worry about him. He was not willing to go to other places and even Grand Dynasty Hotel, because he would feel so lonely in the empty room.  He rolled down the car window. At this moment, he really wanted to be sober and calm down. The wind was so strong, but he only felt cold, and his heart couldn't calm down at all. On the contrary, his heart became more uncomfortable and restless. After driving on the second ring highway for a while, he found an exit and drove out. Then he saw a bar on the side of the road, so he took a bend without thinking. Perhaps he would not be so heartbroken and melancholic after drinking a glass of wine and paralyzing himself with alcohol, right? Even if... he would only be drunk for a day or a few hours, and even a few minutes, as long as he wouldn't continue to think about what had happened that night, it was good, wasn't it? ...... Elizabeth stared at the ground in front of her. She had cried for a long time, and she had no more tears. She felt so cold. A gust of wind blew right in her face, which made her gooseflesh all over. She looked up in the direction of the wind and smiled weakly. Then she lowered her eyes and looked indifferently at the balcony railings. Suddenly, she thought of something. In a daze, she struggled to get up. Just now, James threw away the ring. She... should pick it up. It was the ring he bought for her. Although he did not wear it for her personally, it was a gift for her. If... it weren't for her taking the pills secretly, that ring would have appeared on her ring finger at this time, and it would be shining with happiness... She had been sitting for too long, so she found that her legs were numb when she wanted to get up. As soon as she moved her legs, she felt so painful, as if they were being pricked by needles. Her body was also extremely cold, but she held the wall and struggled to stand up bit by bit. After feeling a little better, she rushed out. She didn't even have time to put on her coat. She stumbled all the way down the stairs and hurriedly ran to the garden. She stood under the balcony of the bedroom and bit her lip, but she didn't know where she should start to find the ring. There were so many meadows and trees, and the ring was so small. How could she find it? She thought about it and didn't want to give up. He bought the ring for her, and the ring was a symbol of love. Even if she didn't sleep all night, she must find it. If she couldn't find it that day, she would continue to look for it the next day. She would keep looking for it until she found it. This garden was not big. Although there were many flowers and plants, and it would be troublesome to find it, as long as she insisted, she would find it sooner or later, wouldn't she? Thinking like this, she no longer hesitated. Starting from the side of her feet, she bent down, pulled open the grass in front of her, and began to search for the ring bit by bit.  The little lamps in the garden helped her a lot, and she could see the ground clearly. However, it was still very difficult to find the ring. How could it be easy to find such a small ring in so many flowers and plants? "Ouch!" Her finger was scratched by something. She felt a slight pain and raised her hand. It was bleeding. She smiled gently. Her heart was full of bitterness, and even her mouth was bitter. But she didn't care about the wound. She endured the pain and continued to look for the ring. At this moment, the only she thought about was to find the ring! She had to find it no matter what...