Chapter 39: BUTTERFLIES.

RHEA'S POV I don't even know why I am crying! I need to stop, I really need to stop. I try to bully myself into stopping, I say all the piercingly hurtful things I always say, all the words that people used to say to me. They usually get me to stop crying but for some reason it did not work this time. I cursed under my breath. Shut up you whiny little bitch! I yelled at myself in my mind. Stop crying, you freak! I tried again, still nothing, still the tears cascaded down from my eyes like a overflowing stream. My fingers nails dug into Cassian's back as my tears formed a puddle on the sleeve of his shirt. “I'm sorry. I'm really really sorry.” I cried. “I don't even know why I'm crying.” I continued crying. He said nothing, he just continued to hold me in a hug until I finally stopped crying, until my stupid finally decided to stop acting a fool. I let go of him slowly, I did not realize how much I had been holding on to him until I let go. I felt awkward sitting next to him, e