NO ONE ELSE

CHAPTER SEVENTY-SIX: NO ONE ELSE. LYRA'S POV I feel really out of place, like a clam that has been forcefully yanked from its shell, like a fish that is being forced to live on land. I don't know what is going on, I don't know what to do, everything is spinning out of control and I am unsure of what to do, unsure of where to stand. Lucian usually never does anything without me, Lucian usually seeks my consent when it comes to our plan to take over the throne. Lucian and I, we used to be a team, we used to be a thing but now it's almost as if I don't know him, it is almost as if he does not want me around me, like he wants to be far away, like a dirty secret tucked away and forgotten. I hate this feeling that I am having, I hate this feeling of being used and dumped, I hate that I feel used and now like I am worth nothing to Lucian. I hate this intuitive feeling that I have that he has found someone else, that I am now a disappearing thought gathering cobwebs at the far end of his memor