Chapter 1109

Zayn didn't attend Willow's funeral. Instead, he took a bottle of sleeping pills. He knew that it was shameful for him to resort to this kind of despair, but Willow's death had left him feeling as if life wasn't worth living. He'd rather die and look for her in the afterlife, spending lifetimes trying to make amends with her. He doubted he could wash away his sins even if he made it to the afterlife. Zayn believed that swallowing the pills wouldn't be enough to kill him. So, while he was still slightly lucid, he took a knife from his nightstand drawer and sliced his wrists. To keep his blood from clotting and to ensure he'd lose enough blood to finish the job, he carefully placed his wrists in the warm water of the bathtub. A continuous flow of warm water surrounded his body while blood gradually flowed from him. He thought that his blood was tainted and filthy. Thus, letting it drain felt like a way to cleanse his sins. He had once offered his blood to save Aaron after the car a