Chapter 45: Blackout

I was losing my head. Jake Dawson asked me on a date. And Luke Dawson wanted to kill me for it. I tried not to think about Luke, but people kept saying his name. He's hard to escape. I felt like Luke hurt me. We had shared sensitive moments together. I know we never kissed but I'm not oblivious. Almost-kisses count. The almost-romantic conversations count. The there's no quitting us and the I'll protect you until you don't need me lines were lies if he could say them and then say we barely knew each other like he said to me yesterday. I had poured my feelings out to him yesterday and he didn't even bother to address it - he just greeted Jamie and invited her into his home. At 10PM.  I don't know what they did or did not do that night, but a girl going over to a guy's house alone at 10PM is a flirty move. And it's disrespectful since he's been flirting with me. I won't take that. So he can stay with Jamie and stay behaving the way I always expected