Chapter 55

For one, I knew there was absolutely no way I could give him up. Not after everything I'd experienced with him and how I felt for him when I really thought about it. He made me laugh and we had incredible chemistry in bed - but then again we'd never had a non-fighting encounter that didn't involve either his tongue, fingers, or cock inside of me. That realization was a hard pill to swallow. But - for the sake of our child - that was going to change. I wanted more with Tanner, that much I knew. I'd been developing true feelings for him up until he purposely hurt me with Titty. The second realization I came to was that I was cheating both Tanner and myself. He'd been his true, albeit crazy, self the entire time we'd know each other. He never held back or tried to give me less than the person he really was, while I was keeping pieces of myself from him. I knew that it was a defense mechanism and that I did it out of fear of being rejected by a man I deemed important (for the