Chapter 27

I want to flee, to leave the room; I want to attack and destroy the room too. But I can't, not in front of these two, not when Carina is out there alone-not with me. So I gather my control and take action, I need to find her and bring her back, she needs to be safe. She'll never be safe with you- A part of my mind screams this at me, but I ignore it. I already know it's true, she'll never be safe with me and that's why I try to keep my distance. I'll always protect her from harm but I can't protect her from me. Yet I'll never be strong enough to protect her, and I can never give myself to her- I'm unworthy of her. This is what I tell myself when I feel that ache to be with her, don't make it harder on her, you can take both of our pain. Pain was the one thing I was good at, both giving and receiving. But then I can't help but thinking I was the reason she left, I mean, I was the reason she left, I can't deny that. I was cruel and vind