19: The Special Guest

[ K A R A ] Confession time. I had to be honest. I knew I told everyone that I was waiting until marriage because I wanted to find a guy who was willing to wait for me, but that was a lie. It was just an excuse I made up. It was just a wall that I built because I was afraid… of love. My own dad ran out on me and I saw my mom got her heart broken time and time again. I was scared. I didn't want to fall in love. I had always thought that love was for suckers and people shouldn’t be trusted. So I made up all these rules and lived strictly by them, thinking I could live my life hurt-free, unscathed. But that didn’t work. Now if you want to know another confession, I got one more. Meeting Ryder had changed me and challenged all my beliefs. For the first time in my life, I wanted to feel things. And even if I got hurt in the end, I might be okay with that.  Am I really…? I never thought I'd say this, but I wanted to take a chance on love. But I was conflicted. Taking a chance on love with Ry