Chapter190:

Mia I was racked with nerves. I was afraid. I didn't think that I had ever been afraid in my life. My heart beat loudly as if it was going to jump out of my heart and I knew that I didn't have to knock on the door when I got to Albert's study to announce my arrival to the elders and whoever was in there. With the superior hearing of the wolves and the way my heart was beating loud enough to compete with the beats from a drum, I was sure that they would have heard me coming, even from miles apart. I was about to get to Albert's study when I turned back and ran outside to the garden. I couldn't do this. I couldn't do it. I couldn't face the elders when I was this much of a mess and didn't even know what they wanted from me. I had to be composed to stand before them and not be torn into shreds by them but I couldn't find it in me at all to compose myself. I ran all the way out to the garden seeking some fresh air for myself. Maybe after some minutes out there, I would have gotten the stre