Chapter 25

Before I start this chapter, I'm going to explain something. I know, people are probably not liking the weak Samuel. He has depression, self hatred, and pain that he kept to himself since he could first understand them. He's twenty, imagine the multiple years that he had to hide his emotions. He was rejected by his mate, called a freak, he got the crap beaten out of him, his mother was killed for giving birth to him, and he's broken. Depression rips people apart, slowly. It makes you feel like you're a burden, that no one can love you. You feel alone, empty, tired. It's a horrible feeling, what makes it worst is the fact you hold your emotions in. You feel as if you shouldn't say anything because people aren't going to want to hear it. It hurts. You mentally lose it and sometimes...it kills you. People with depression walk around with smiles on their faces, but if you truly study them you can see it in their eyes. They aren't happy. Also, Samuel is completely