Chapter 1078

I thought about my past with Dixon before I left the house. Another moment of silence came. As I raised my hand to stop a cab, he spoke in a mellow voice, “If Zachary was never in the picture, would you have gotten back together with me? Carol, I’ve never wanted to let you go, but at the same time, I don’t want to put you in a difficult situation to choose between the both of us. I suffer every day for this very matter, and I can’t help myself.” I lowered my arm and looked into his eyes. I saw true sadness in his eyes. He was rather sorrowful. He regretted his missed opportunities. He regretted his actions in the past. However, the past had passed. We had to look forward—always. After some pondering, I explained, “I’ve thought of this, Dixon, about how life would be if I’d stayed with you. I thought I’d be happy too, I guess? Another type of happiness, I mean. Nowhere near the happiness I’m experiencing now. Perhaps I feel I’m the most contented now, so I’m not seeking anything