Chapter 80

Silly boy he knows I am lighter on my feet than him. I leap and try pounce as he rolls from my moves. Slight growl escapes as I hone in on my target. Sometimes I feel bad for what I am about to do but it sure feels nice to be back in control. Life without who I am now would have not been worth living.  Without Master and Ivan, I would have succumbed years ago. Master has never been far from me except on missions. This ways are alluring and beyond understanding. I trust no one but him. Between the two they have shown me how to remain rooted and separate myself from the emotions and pain. I learned how to bottle them and move forward driven to be more than I am. To become the fighter, lover, and a Warrior who will no longer be a victim.  Within in Ivan’s arms I am able to exist without gut wrenching pain and torture from the memories and thoughts of what was and never can be. He has an ability to clear my mind and allow a brief reprieve from the constant attack