#Chapter 100: If I Knew You Were A Virgin…

At the next Nanny lesson, Steven approaches me right as it’s set to begin and tells me, “Neil won’t be here today.” “Did he give a reason why?” I ask. Steven shrugs. Guess not. Neil made clear that when he gave me oral, that would be the last time we would be intimate together. I didn’t realize at the time that this also meant he would be totally ignoring me afterwards for the rest of my life. He’s been avoiding me in the hallways, turning a different way if he saw me. I have not seen him at all in the kitchens, or on campus. I suppose he knows my schedule, so he could plan his every move without ever running into me. That thought feels a bit paranoid, though. Steven returns to his chair. For a while, I am able to push the thoughts of Neil to the back of my mind and focus on the lesson. The brothers already know how to change the baby, but practice makes perfect. So I watch over their shoulders as they apply and remove diapers to plastic baby dolls. Mia, in my arms, claps and