#Chapter 311: An Impossible Choice

Debbie’s question and my response stay with me the rest of the day. As happy as I am to have Tide back with us again, it is hard not to feel anything other than restless with how uncertain I am in my own life. I try to be positive during the rest of the visit, and even as I hug and say goodbye to Debbie and Tide. But it’s always sitting in the back of my mind. If I have to pick only one, who would it be? Beau, Steven, Archer, or Neil. It seems an impossible choice. I’m so distracted, I skip dinner, and after putting Mia down to sleep, I head to my room and flop face first down onto my bed. Alone, the thoughts are even louder and more insistent. What if I don’t mate with any of them? What if it’s a stranger who claims me? What if I have to leave the Pyramid and I never get to see the brothers again? I can’t imagine that any potential partner would be okay with me staying in the same house as three previous lovers. Especially when I still want them to be my lovers.