#Chapter 320: Butterflies In Your Stomach

For the rest of the morning, I desperately try not to think about Neil. Whoever he’s in love with, I won’t be offended by it. The hurt I feel has nothing to do with this new person. She must be great for her to have won Neil’s affections. The hurt is my own loss, my own problem. I let my feelings for Neil – hell, for all the brothers – overrule reason, and now I am the one who has to deal with the fallout. I try not to sulk, but it’s hard. The grief is agony. I feel the loss deeply: what could have been, what almost was. I still manage to smile when Beau and Mia return home. For Mia, I pull on my smile as we play and laugh. My time with her is short, too. Although, as Steven loves me, maybe he would help me sneak in from time to time to check on Mia and on him. I don’t want to be away from any of the brothers. After putting down Mia for her nap, I return to the living room to find Beau watching the earlier live broadcast of Neil’s interview. He’s irritable, hurling insults at