Chapter93: 93

“He just kissed me, Xana; he didn’t propose. Like you said, I think he’s just looking to get laid. Besides, I’m not so sure I’m ready to jump back into something yet.” She gives me a look of pity. “I thought you were ready to move on and explore things with other people?” “Explore, yes, but jumping into another relationship right away ju—” “Right away? Daph, it’s been two years.” I fiddle with my fork, my shoulders dropping as I exhale. “I felt something.” “What do you mean?” “In the way, he kissed me, held me, looked at me. It made me feel—I’ve never felt that way before and it scared me.” “Is it fear or guilt?” “Both. I think I feel bad that I’m interested in someone else. I can’t help but compare how he makes me feel to how Carson made me feel. What I had with Carson was completely different. It was emotional, but I’d be lying to myself if I said that Carson could ignite this passion and fire inside me with a single touch or kiss like Weston has. It’s all so new. Do you have that wi