Chapter FORTY

LUCIAN Fuck! My chest rose and fell in uneven breaths. She cheated me! The words wouldn't stop chanting in my head no matter how I tried. It was continuous, slowly driving me insane. She had spewed out those lies that she would accept me. I wasn't a person who trusted easily, being skeptical about almost everything was a trait I had inherited for as long as I could remember. And while I hadn't fully believed her, a huge part of me had hoped...Even when I shouldn't. When I had often fantasized about her all those years, it hadn't involved me harming her, I wanted her and thought she would be the only person who would ever understand me...who would love me. And even though I didn't understand what the feeling meant, I knew I wanted it from her. Why did she have to think of that bastard all of the time! I inhaled sharply, trying to control the trembling of my fingers, which only happened whenever I was incredibly upset. Damn it! I didn't need this right now. I haven't felt like this in a