New beginnings

Two days have passed since I cut our ties. Despite telling him no, I was suffering from a lassitude, a vagueness, that prevented me from doing anything more energetic and profitable than wandering the streets of New York listlessly. A strenuous exercise may help, but my body was not obeying my commands. What I need is, I decided fretfully, something to take my mind off Raphael Sinclair. Remind me why are we doing this again? Asked my inner diva. Self-respect, I gritted out. It must be nice sleeping with that self-respect, my inner self said sarcasm dripping from her voice. Decide which side you are before sprouting your nonsense. Can I say, peace? My inner b queried. There was nothing dramatically changing in my life once I said no. No light pointed out whether I have done the right thing or not. No mini-Raphael's asking, 'Why did you leave daddy, mommy?' In the dreams. All the same, I felt lonely. Sometimes I questioned myself, for whom am I behaving as such. What