Chapter 32 Flash back (my virginity)

(Flash back) At 4pm, I left my office to see mary so I can satisfy my sexual urge before going home. I got to the room and she's not there. "where would she be?" Is she playing with me? I waited for 10 minutes and she's not yet to be seen. This girl should not mess with me because it won't end well. I need someone who will satisfy my sexual urge at the moment. I don't know why but I have high sexual urge. It started after I slept with a prostitute when I was 19. I went through hell at my early age. I suffered betrayals from different gilrs before I loosed my virginity. I promised myself to loose it to the girl I would love but unfortunately, I loosed it to a prostitute after many disappointment from the girls I loved, the girls I wished to loose it to. The once I hope to loosed it to turned to betray me. Sometimes its just like an unlucky or that God doesn't want me to loose. Anytime am about to loose the innocence , something will come which will probably interrupt the on building sc