#Chapter 121: Before You Hurt Someone

Time ticks by. Caleb goes on date after date. I try to avoid the hurt that swells inside of me every time he leaves me to spend time with some other woman. It doesn’t get easier. To distract myself, I push my body with the warrior training. The Pitmaster is a demanding teacher. She does not punish us for our mistakes or failures. She simply makes us get up and try again and again. Even after we get it right, she pushes us to continue trying. “I want you to have completed these moves so many times they are second nature to you,” she says. “You shouldn’t even need to think of them. Your hand will find your blade and move before your mind has a moment to consider anything.” Eventually, it starts to feel like an accurate sentiment. The more I do the movements, the more natural they seem, until I can complete them without even looking anymore. My problem, as ever, is that I lack strength. The Pitmaster makes me flex my arms for her then frowns at my thin arms. “I doubt the K