Chapter 68

They left me alone to my thoughts. Times like this, times when no one else is around, I think about the person I used to be. When I left I had one goal in mind: move past my not so sad rejection. I'd thought there was no love lost between Ethan and me so there was nothing to be sad about. However sometimes I wondered whether that was true. Yes, Ethan and I have never been in love, but maybe we could have been. I meant what I told Alex, maybe if things had been had been different Ethan and I would have had a loving life together. We may have never loved each other but that didn't mean there was no love lost between us. We lost the love we could have had. In a way that was worse. I didn't spend too long in the room. Just long enough to make sure no one stood guard outside the door. I slipped out a tad more slowly than I would have liked. Perhaps Jason has a point about bedrest. I'd do as he instructed as soon as I need what I needed to do. I slowly