  Jas&quot; point of view
  I nodded in accord with her proposal that I sleep in her place. It is hard for me to deny that it affects my mood. When she approached and hugged me around the waist, my stomach dropped and I couldn't budge from my stance. The anxiousness flowed through my body as she put his face against my chest. I felt my heart racing for a few seconds, and I knew she heard it. I'm not sure what she was thinking when listening to my irregular heart rhythm, and I wish she could feel how vibrant I am now. I hope she knew that whenever she is with me, my being brightens, but I know she won't because she has no idea what I am feeling for her.
  I wish I had the guts to admit my feelings for her; I hope I could prove to her that I am worthy of her; I wish I didn't have my illness so that I could love her freely. My decision was correct; she deserved someone who could always find

  El&quot;s point of view
  I awoke with the sensation of someone embracing my back. I remained still in my posture and simply felt his warmth. I'm not sure whether I should be delighted because of his hug or saddened as I only have an hour until I have to let him go. I stayed in bed for a few more minutes, carefully removing his arm from around my waist. He didn't feel till I left the room when I got up.
  Before heading to the kitchen, I make myself presentable. I have class today, so I just got up early to prepare breakfast. I made fried rice, spam, and eggs, just like I used do every morning. I also made a cup of hot chocolate for myself and a cup of cold chocolate for Jas. Even though it's 4:30 a.m., Jas has yet to leave the room. Everything is all up on the table, and all I have to do now is wait for him to arrive before starting breakfast. Something makes me want to go to my room 

  Even though we haven't seen one other in a few days, I find I am missing him as I stare into his eyes. He isn't shedding tears, but I can see the unhappiness in his eyes. I preserve my smile for him, but I don't feel it is genuine when he smiles back.
  "Good morning, Jas," I said with a smile. "Get inside," I said, motioning him inside. He handed me something before he entered, and when I looked at it, it was a milk tea from Nanay Lao's caf&eacute;. "Wow, thank you for this, Jas," I said, looking at him. "You already know how to calm my mind." At the same moment, he gulped and smiled.
  I went to my living room first, and he followed. He sat near me on the sofa when I sat there. I took the drinks out of the paper bag and handed it to him. I instantly sipped my drinks in anticipation of tasting them, and when I did, I couldn't help but tell Jas how much I missed drinks and thanked him 

Jas&quot; point of view
  I nodded in accord with her proposal that I sleep in her place. It is hard for me to deny that it affects my mood. When she approached and hugged me around the waist, my stomach dropped and I couldn't budge from my stance. The anxiousness flowed through my body as she put his face against my chest. I felt my heart racing for a few seconds, and I knew she heard it. I'm not sure what she was thinking when listening to my irregular heart rhythm, and I wish she could feel how vibrant I am now. I hope she knew that whenever she is with me, my being brightens, but I know she won't because she has no idea what I am feeling for her.
  I wish I had the guts to admit my feelings for her; I hope I could prove to her that I am worthy of her; I wish I didn't have my illness so that I could love her freely. My decision was correct; she deserved someone who could always find time to love, care for, and make an effort for her.
   I regain my composure and return her hug. M

Chapter 34