PAIN AND PLEASURE(2)

CHAPTER 2 This is my life now. This is the life that I deserve. It all started so small and harmlessly. Thinking back now I can hardly believe that a ridiculous fight with my husband was the beginning of my afflictions. A fight that, as it turns out, was the beginning of the end. It started with him stumbling in at 4 o’clock in the morning after a night playing poker and drinking as much as he could before he had to come home. He woke me up as he was stumbling around trying to get into bed. I was at my boiling point because this seemed to be a very common occurrence, especially in the last year. As we got into a yelling match, he said the words that neither of us could ever possibly take back, “Your problem, Nicole, is that you never go out! You never try to make friends! You never want to do anything without me! I just wish you would be more independent! You need to get a life of your own and let me do what I want!” When Brian said those words, it cut me like a knife. He knew that I h