#Chapter 79-The Frustration

A sleepless night. Tossing and turning, images of Derek next to me on the couch, and the words of Ryan replaying in my head. I end up in the shower at 4am. The frustration of trying to understand Derek’s intentions is killing me. My ankles are absolutely killing me. I sit on the edge of the bathtub, head bent forward as the water cascades over me. The way Derek stood up quickly last night, essentially dismissing me from the apartment after handing me that necklace, makes no sense. I can understand trying to avoid Sadie while she’s around the girls. But why me? He’s clearly been interested in me for a long time. I even tried to force him out of my life to ensure we could still keep our jobs and keep things simple. Nothing about my relationship with Derek seems simple anymore. “What the fuck?” I groan into my hands. “What the actual fuck?” I stay in the shower, half wanting to fall asleep under the stream of warmth. I keep replaying moments between the two of us. Him