Chapter 159

Jonathan and I didn't seem like the kind of couple that got married for love. Was it a shotgun wedding? But we didn't have a child. I shut my eyes, forcing myself to stop thinking about it. All I could say, painfully, was, "I give up. I can't keep living like this. These years of marriage have been nothing but pain for me. I had no joy and no peace." I didn't know what the 25-year-old version of me had been thinking… But the me standing here now felt nothing but suffocation and sadness. If that pain hadn't run so deep, I wouldn't have ended up slitting my wrists in the first place. Even without remembering the past five years, I knew those memories had to be full of wounds, not a trace of sweetness. "I'm begging you, let me go." "To you… Are all those years just pain? There's not a single moment worth holding on to?" Jonathan asked, his voice raw, like he hadn't expected me to say that. I watched his Adam's apple move as he swallowed. His dark eyes, usually unreadable, now loo