Chapter18:

I lost the very reason for me to live. Not only did Killian break my heart and bond, but Killian also took the life out of me. I want to die and be at peace. I bit my lips to stop myself from crying. When will this suffering end?  Before I knew it, it was nightfall again. I could hear the owls in the woods outside my house, better in the dark. I often fell asleep to their sounds. It is the only thing that can help me sleep. It was like a melody only for me.  I slept soundly for most of the night. I only woke up to the sound of the wind howling through or when the rain picked up heavily on the roof. I wasn't sure when the rain started, but it was soothing nonetheless. I like it more of a quit pitter patter though. When the day came again, I was awake and greeted by another painful realization that I was only alive to endure the pain alone.  I want to die. I badly want to die. I hate the thought of waking up every day and missing some part of me that I used to have, my wolf.  There was a