When It Rains

" Are you happy now? Are you happy breaking me into pieces? I fell for you, Even though I know I shouldn't have." A sob escaped my lips. I didn't want him to see me this vulnerable but I can't keep it anymore. 'What? I love you Kristen for goodness sake. I was just here because I needed to make things clear" 'When? Where? How?" 'What do you mean?" 'Where is this love you're saying? I can't feel it anymore. When do you love me? When it's convenient for you? How do you even know you love me, I don't even know what love is?" I almost whisper everything I said but I made sure he heard me He stood there just like he always does. Stands there and just stare at me while I am at my weakest point. I smiled 'Just....nevermind I said that." I turn away and he runs his fingers through his hair then I look back. I parted my lips wanting say something but I stop myself afraid that I might regret it later and that I might hurt myself even more. I shake my head, close my eyes and took a deep breath. When I open my eyes, our eyes met. I gave him a faint smile and turned away.